One of my best friends got in a very bad accident and passed away. Another stressful thing is that my computer got hold of a virus by the name of ANTImedia. It took out every single composition on my computer, including all mp3's, wav's, midi's, finale files, etc. Unfortunately I did not save the work that I have been working on for the past three months. Deadlines for some of the musicis next week and my student recital is also next week. All of my music is gone and the stress is piling up. I am at a total loss and feel like complete crap.

Also, I dropped a bottle of mayonaise on my foot and really wrecked up my leg and foot.

Thankfully, I can find much love and kindness on this messageboard. Thank you to all for hearing out my problems and trying your best to cheer me up. But, when I see all that work just disappear, I just cannot help be upset. Life is not going good for me and I am sorry I will not be able to post for a while. I am going to try to get through this and hopefully all will eventually turn out well.

Hardship is simply a hurdle to be leaped over, and you have already well demonstrated that your character is up to the challenge.

Go to it, man!

you know me. Call me. Call me collect. Whatever it is you need, whatever I can do to help, consider it done.

I pray for you.

God bless,

Hang in there buddy! We'll leave a light on.

Talk to you soon.
Jeron

THAT was my pep speech for your creative loss. As for your personal loss, no words can come close to helping you feel better about this. The best I can do for you is this: 1) although the pain will never go away completely, it will be replaced by a desire to balance of love nad a positive outlook. Nture, after al, abhors a vaccuum and will make every effort to fill it. The passing of your friend will, no doubt, inspire you to create something glorious and uplifting to replace the pain of loss. 2) I thank the universe daily for people such as Jeron, Scott, Mark Hatfield, Brad, Shaun and all of you out there who rush to the aid of friends (and strangers). As you so aptly put it, Aaron, there is no want for love and support here on this board. We, like so many other "minorities" and sub-cultures, do strive to look after our own...and I am grateful for this. I know you are in good hands and I don't worry about your well-being quite as much. 3) Life is like ALIENS (no, it isn't a rip off of Khatachaturian...PLEASE...). It's a roller-coaster ride...highs and lows, ups and downs. If ever there comes a low point where you wonder HOW you'll reach the top again, just remember to look at the big picture...realize that you may be at a low point in the ride of life, but that next rise is just around the corner, ready to lift you high and set you sailing on the breeze.

Aaron, my brother, friend and colleague, you have all the love that is mine to give, all the support that is mine to offer and all the strength at my command.

GREAT BIG HUG!!!!!!!!

You have some fine and good friends on this board Aaron some of whom you even know personally and that is a blessing man.

Anyway, You will resolve everything, I know.

yours

Tim

Very sorry to hear of your loss. Know that we're all here to help and comfort you. You're a very strong person. You'll make it through this all right.

At any rate...I had a bad day today myself. I was sitting in the library on campus hoping to go over some poetry with this realy cool lady friend I sit with in class. I began to rummage through the bag and *gasp* the textbook with the recent poetry reading assignments weren't there! Sooo...Off I went down a rainy street (a 10 minute walk, and for a guy who's going on 26 years old and out of shape, this is a big deal) to drive 15 minutes to my house, then BACK to the campus, and back up the rainy street to the library. There was the girl of my dreams waiting for me...

...and on the staircase I noticed some recently spilled coffe. The girl who was waiting for me apparently slipped on the stairs (due to the wetness of the soles of her shoes), fell right on her ass, and spilled cofee on herself. And I thought I was having a bad day, hehe

I just can't read this without giving an answer to you!

Everything's gonna be allright, believe me!

Be well.

Thanks for the nice posts, nice telephone conversations, and the nice emails. Also, thank you Shaun for those great vigorous videos. I still cannot explain how those two bodies can do all those type of things! They were definitely stimulating!

Unfortunately, I had to format my drive and re-install all my media, software, and hardware. All my scores, works in progress, and recordings are gone and I have to start anew. So, like my composition teacher said, "think of this as a cleansing and new start."

I have been rejected from a few films I was working on. Unfortunately with this computer crash, I have one week to work on these films which is definitely not enough time.

I would never leave this board and the thought would not even enter my head. Thanks again for the support and love and I am back!

Thanks,
Aaron

NP: Alice and Wonderland(Richard H.)

Although it's hard, see it at least that way that you've learned a bit from the computer crash: Data loss is lurking at every corner, especially if you're using Windows. Regular backups can save months of work (which reminds me that I should do some backups myself).

I hope things get better for you soon.

Thanks!

Note to PeterK: I would email him, except that the email listed here is old and I am at work and don't have the new one.

Thanks!

I just been away for a while so I'm back and You're back.
Keep composing.
If You lost Your scores you have the Ideas on Your mind.
Just re-write them as it was a re-recording.
Perhaps You develop a new view of the old work.
I do that a lot.
Mahler did all the time and it works very nicely.
Or, at least I think so...